Between Hitching Posts

This book is all about pushing personal boundaries, by taking a book “Wreck this Journal” and wrecking it. Each page has a prompt of something to do to the book or that page (i.e. tearing pages, smearing food, fling the book, taking it into the shower…). I first picked up the book when I was working with some teens at The Boys & Girls Club on journalling. Now that I am working through this book for myself, I have found that I hold myself to a very restrictive standard in trying express myself (& I wonder why my creativity doesn’t flow freely). I feel a need to create, but then block myself by saying “it must be perfect”, “it must be magnificent”. I am defeated before I even begin & a lot of times, I quit right there.  This book is about making it a mess, and after looking at other blogs (of people participating in this project), I see that I am still holding back. My book is still neat. It still lays flat. In my mind I think there is somehow a way to achieve perfect wreckage. COME ON – REALLY?! Perfect wreckage? That is a joke.  My challenge for myself in the next week is to let it go.  I will let the book be ruined! In fact, fist thing I’m handing it over to my children to write in. gasp! I can do it. The book will survive & their writing/drawing will abolish my expectations for the book.